Yesterday was pretty good. Stuck to my diet. Not too much to say other than that.
Still having trouble shaking the "moody grays". Why is it that I can have a day where nothing goes wrong, and it still feels as though everything did?
Bleh. That's what I have to say about it.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
Checking In - Its been a while. . .
Its been a while. I fell of the diet, and now I'm getting back onto it.
So, what happened?
Well, I got sick. Still not certain if it was emotional or physical causes. At this point, it doesn't matter. I had diarrhea for 10 days straight (WAY too long). I was vomiting as well, which isn't good. Then I got depressed.
Depression is not something I tolerate well. Oh, its fine in other people. I simply have no patience for it in myself. I do my best to fight it, and up until this past June, I think I succeed pretty well.
Not this time. This time, I fell flat on my face. While I was doing that, my life partners also nose-dived in for a swim in the depression pool. Then I got angry at myself for falling into a depression and well, it got messy. Its been not pretty in my house for almost 2 months.
I'm done with that. I'm done with being tired & sick.
I'm back on my smoothies. I'm back to my veggies. Bronnie is helping a TON. She went back on anti-depressants. She's helping me avoid going on them (for myriad reasons, not the least of which is I'm on enough damned medication already). By next week, I'm hoping to be back to yoga in the AM & walks in the afternoon.
So, how bad did it get?
My blood sugar is a MESS. My weight is not. Personally, I'd rather that were the other way around, but I'll still take it, and be grateful. I've not lost all the ground I'd gained, and in fact, my weight is 1lb. less than my best so far. I'm currently at 227, and hopefully my blood sugar will come right back into line.
So, I'm checking in. Going to start tracking & blogging again.
I'm back. I'm bruised & battered (by myself, and mostly my pride) but I'm here & I'm moving forward again.
So, what happened?
Well, I got sick. Still not certain if it was emotional or physical causes. At this point, it doesn't matter. I had diarrhea for 10 days straight (WAY too long). I was vomiting as well, which isn't good. Then I got depressed.
Depression is not something I tolerate well. Oh, its fine in other people. I simply have no patience for it in myself. I do my best to fight it, and up until this past June, I think I succeed pretty well.
Not this time. This time, I fell flat on my face. While I was doing that, my life partners also nose-dived in for a swim in the depression pool. Then I got angry at myself for falling into a depression and well, it got messy. Its been not pretty in my house for almost 2 months.
I'm done with that. I'm done with being tired & sick.
I'm back on my smoothies. I'm back to my veggies. Bronnie is helping a TON. She went back on anti-depressants. She's helping me avoid going on them (for myriad reasons, not the least of which is I'm on enough damned medication already). By next week, I'm hoping to be back to yoga in the AM & walks in the afternoon.
So, how bad did it get?
My blood sugar is a MESS. My weight is not. Personally, I'd rather that were the other way around, but I'll still take it, and be grateful. I've not lost all the ground I'd gained, and in fact, my weight is 1lb. less than my best so far. I'm currently at 227, and hopefully my blood sugar will come right back into line.
So, I'm checking in. Going to start tracking & blogging again.
I'm back. I'm bruised & battered (by myself, and mostly my pride) but I'm here & I'm moving forward again.
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