Checking In

So, I'll admit, I panicked a little all weekend. Looming (in my head anyway) was the scale, mocking me. I was convinced that SOMETHING was broken inside me, and that it didn't matter what I did, eventually the thing I was trying would fail & I'd start gaining weight.

Yeah, I'm a dork. The scale did NOT mock me this morning. Quite to the contrary, it told me that I now weigh 232.5. That's down from last week's 237, and a total of 14 pounds lost so far.

That's really good. Its HARD for diabetics to lose weight. REALLY hard. Like doctor acknowledged, many medical journal articles written about, self-help groups created for hard. Its hard for anyone to lose weight, but for some reason, diabetics get hit harder. On the upside, for every pound a diabetic loses, he/she gets the health benefits of 2 pounds lost (please note: if you're reading this & you're doc has told you to lose weight, please don't be an ass and think "well, doc said lose 10 lbs. but I only have to lose 5!". Nope. that's not how this works, & you know it.). I'd still rather have an easier time getting this bulk off my bod, but hey, I'll take what I can get!

More important to me than this weight loss is the energy gain. I have ENERGY!! I feel better, I can walk better & farther. My toes don't go numb as quickly as they did, and sometimes not at all! I am waking up more awake, and going to bed and sleeping better. Yeah, there are down sides (we've already had the gross poo discussion. I don't think that needs repeating.), but the up sides are SO DRAMATIC (please note the all caps for dramatic emphasis) that I'm willing to overlook those. Those things are what I clung to last week after I'd gained a pound. I told myself that it didn't matter. It was just one weigh in, and I'd have a lot of those to get through, and some of them would suck; like this one did. I spent most days last week reminding myself to just keep going. Honestly, by Thursday morning, I felt like the Little Engine That Could, and got somewhat sick of myself! I kept going anyway.

It worked. I just have to remember to measure & not sweat the numbers around menstruation. We'll see if I can remember this sage advice next month!