Kate's Corner - Monday 05/21

The Crunchy Bits:

Blood Pressure 124/77 pulse 89

Blood Sugars
5:15 AM 106
10:30 AM 150
12:30 PM 117
4:00 PM 97
7:00 PM 68
9:30 PM 68

Breakfast Breakfast Smoothie

Snack Swiss Chard Salad w/ 1/4 cucumber, 1/4 beet, 2 tbsp newmans own & 1/4 c. walnuts

Lunch 1 c refried beans

Snack 1/4 c. almond butter 3 celery stalks & 1/4 cucumber

Dinner 4 oz tilapia w/ 1 c. steamed veggies & drizzle of coconut milk curry sauce

Exercise AM yoga, 15 min walk

The Froo-Froo Bits:

Nick mentioned something this morning that I was thinking about all day yesterday. How do you measure the immeasurable? I have a lot of data from the past few weeks that's just going to make my doctor's weep with happiness. It doesn't mean all that much to me. Those are numbers & numbers are good. However I've achieved some of these numbers before (though not this efficiently), and I felt like ASS doing so. I don't this time, and that's what's most important to me. I FEEL good. My energy is picking up. I keep trying to find ways to explain that to people, but I find myself lacking a ruler. How to you measure feeling more awake? How do you measure being able to go home at night with enough energy to participate in family conversations? I can say those words, but does anyone really get it? I know. I guess that's going to have to be enough.

Don't misunderstand me, please: I'm not looking for validation here. Not really. I'm trying to find words to put this feeling into so that I can crystallize it. I need to be able to remember this place, so that as it gets better, I won't forget where I started from.

So, here goes.

3 weeks ago I couldn't, but now I can:

- walk down the metro tunnel at my home station w/o losing my breath of having my feet go numb.

- walk up the ramp at work w/o having to stop and catch my breath.

- go home after work with any hope of doing anything but sit on the couch playing a video game I've played a bajillion times & then passing out from exhaustion.

- walk around the building I work in at all w/o losing both my breath & the feeling in my feet.

When I put these few things into words, they don't seem like much, but to me, this is HUGE! I feel like I"m coming back to life.

That has everything and nothing to do with those numbers I post here. Its not about the numbers, its about how I feel. The numbers are just a way to tell my doctor's "See! It bloody well IS working!"