So, I'm discovering that I have a temper.
I know. I'm shocked too. (she says with dripping sarcasm).
Seriously though, I was looking online at heavy bags today. I'm starting to think that all diet books/programs sold by folks who really want to help would come in a "deluxe" package that includes a free-standing punching bag.
See, I buried emotions with food. I'm not doing that so much any more. This is a GOOD THING. However, I'm not only feeling what's going on around me more acutely, I'm also now having to deal with the emotions that were buried under the weight that is falling off.
Ummmmm. . . .I didn't expect THAT.
Yesterday, I had lovely visions on my commute home of popping this guy on the train in the face. He was just being your average, garden-variety dick. I didn't, but I was really ENJOYING the fantasy of doing so. I think its getting time to think about venting that anger & channeling it into. . .something. A punching bag is a good place to start.
I've looked at the letting go of anger sites. They are helpful, but only to a point. I know for myself, there's anger and then there's "I need to hit something". Like any responsible adult in our society, I don't hit the thing I want to, or anything else, but its there, and that part of the anger for me just doesn't go away.
Seriously thinking about a heavy bag. . .I could kick that too! (See, 2 for 1 anger venting!)
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