Why?

Most people upon finding out that I'm beginning this process seem to see only the positives.

Then there are others who look confused and say "But your so STABLE! Why would you do this?"

Well, here's why.

Today after a couple of really steady good blood sugar weeks, my blood sugar began to inexplicably climb this afternoon. Last check was 452. I think it might have been a kink that I found in the tubing that leads from my pump to the site at which it enters my body, but until I check again I simply don't know for sure. What was a pretty good day has now become an exhausting grind - because of mechanical failure.

Yes, I'm currently VERY stable. However I've never lost sight of the fact that my stability is an illusion built on a piece of machinery. A piece of machinery that can and does malfunction, and that takes a minimum of overnight to replace (or longer, as was the case when I had a malfunction during a series of severe snow storms).

I'm risking what stability I've got for a chance at living a life that doesn't contain kinks in the tubing, mechanical malfunctions, or such suches.

We'll see how it goes. . .