Sent

So, today after much hemming and hawing, I decided to read the packet sent to me by the Transplant Center.

And promptly panicked when I read that I had to have it there within 14 days of receipt. Of course, I went through the "WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" stage. Then the "WHAT IF I'M NOT READY FOR THIS" stage.

Then I pulled up my big girl panties and finished reading the d'md thing.

Its still scary. I shook as I filled out the forms. I shook as I dialed the fax number, and I shook for a good half hour after I'd hit the sent button. (the fax went through, I checked).

Today, I officially took the first real step on this path. Its terrifying and wonderful all at the same time. I have equal measures of fear & hope. Fear that I won't be accepted for this. Fear that I will be, and that everything in my life will change because of it. Fear that I'll do this and it won't help or matter.

Hope that I'll be accepted and everything will go well, and that my whole life wil change because of this.

No matter what, the next step is out of my hands now. Its up to the nice people at the Transplant Center & my Insurance Company.

We'll see. . .